Tuesday, October 30, 2012

first time for everything

I have never really been into Halloween. But this year I found a costume I couldn't deny. So I went ALL OUT. Pictures to follow..

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

hump day

I have all these thoughts in my head that need a place to land. They need space to breathe, or the ability to exist without judgment. My mind is not that place.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

days go by

This weekend marked the 53rd year since my Dad was born. I've been thinking for a while exactly what that means. Does any day of the year make a difference in the fact that I have learned to miss him every other day? Does it mean that we celebrate or that we mourn? Is this day any different than the days before it? Can someone tell me how to feel?

A birthday is a day to celebrate and express gratitude for someone, their life and the memories you've shared. When I host a birthday dinner I always make the attendees go around and say something they love about the person. Since my daily routine usually emcompasses reminders of things I love about my dad, the day passed without incident or intense emotion. However, I find myself looking back and again asking if someone could tell me how to feel?

I'm finding peace in a passage of scripture from the Book of Mormon:
Mosiah 16:8 The grave hath no victory, and the sting of death is swallowed up in Christ.

Monday, October 1, 2012

The Answer Is Within You

This is the reminder that when you're feeling too anxious to function the answer is not to shop or stop eating or watch tv or leave town or complain to a therapist.

The answer is a belly deep laugh with friends, or a pink yoga mat, or giving yourself permission to take a nap because when you wake up life will still exist.