Sunday, April 29, 2012

Dear Dad,

I couldnt sleep last night because I am so happy. I am so excited about the things that are coming up in my life. I don't feel like I deserve for everything to work out as well as it has. But I accept the blessings, of course.

And yet, with all the peace and joy, somewhere in me there is a discontentment. It is a fear that I am not doing as well as I think. Maybe it's facade and tomorrow I will wake up in shambles. Maybe it will be at the end of my next beginning, maybe it will be when mom remarries, maybe it will be when my children ask about you. I don't know when, but I know that I will feel again the feelings I worked so hard to overcome.

For now, I will enjoy the joy and peace that is coming, because that's what you did. Live everyday like it is special. Treat everyone like they are special. Be patient and optimistic. Just like you said to be.

Love, Mo.


Jaclyn said...

just found your blog. good stuff girlie. pulls at the heartstrings and makes me laugh. as if my critique even matters...anyway, i like it.

Elyse Dial said...

i appreciate that. of course your opinion matters!

Kyria M Dial said...

Made me cry! Miss him every second. Miss you toooo.

Kyria M Dial said...

This is mom though, not Kiki