something that i ACTUALLY did today

went to campus to take my media ethics final- mistake number one, school? saturday?- during the test i kept having that feeling that there was something i'd rather be doing. what is it? what would i rather be doing right now? i can't exactly figure it out... oh my gosh! i know! i would rather be trying on shoes and swim suits at the mall. okay... A, C, C, D, A, yes, no, true, true, true, true, fill in the blank with random crap, gave my test to my professor with a pleading smile and went to the mall. so when i said that school wasn't my first priority, what i meant was that school is not my first priority.

How to annoy me...

become an institution called brigham young university. grr.

Realization

I was sitting in Media Ethics, a Communications class centered on “good” and “bad” practices, and not in a Machiavellian sort of manner where we step on everyone to get on top, but in an actual, practical business situation where individuals in the industry are trained to think in terms of what is ethical for themselves and their clients. Here I am sitting discussing my opinions, which were vastly diverse from the rest of the eager hand-raisers, and I had a feeling of personal intelligence, a feeling that is typically muted by the grades and competitiveness of my school. I don’t mean this in a hoity-toity manner, neither do I feel above any of my peers. I do feel, however, that I was taught from my infancy to do something that many people are just now learning: How to think for myself. This principle, which I considered a hindrance until just recently, is the reason I am the way the that I am. It is the reason I don’t feel all that comfortable in a classroom setting. It is the reason I laugh when students ask questions like, “Is this going to be on the test?” and “I didn’t find that in the syllabus, where is it?” Everything I do is in an effort to expand my mind, not impress professors. I seek to impress those that matter, for instance the two shining souls who taught me this strange way of doing things, my parents. I seek to impress myself and push myself and be the best I can be. I can’t help but to pity those around me who are worried about public opinion and who, for fear of standing out, do everything exactly how they were asked to.

Granted, my interesting learning technique would be better suited at a University that wasn’t so conservative, marriage driven, and full of carbon copies, however, I have decided that I add something new to the curriculum. A WOMAN who isn’t so much worried about GPA (although who isn’t a little worried about GPA, I mean I would like to be adorned with ropes when I graduate) as she is about expanding her horizons, doing something new, trying everything and becoming who I was born to become.

coats, boots, and other important things

Because I'm moving to Utah I've taken it upon myself to purchase hundreds of pairs of coats, boots, scarves, and gloves. Winter is always a reason to be extremely stylish because you have more chances to wear more clothes that exhibit your feeling, style, and mood and thus increase you chance of looking good. I will be taking every opportunity to look good. Currently I have a room that looks like it was hit by Hurricane Ike. And yet, I feel proud that come January I will pack up the boots and coats and take the snow by storm. Unintentional pun, not intended. 

Winter is also a reason to be extremely depressed, which is why this pre-winter preparation retail therapy seems to be helping cure the depression of knowing that I will be in the cold. Plus, I will have the sibs (minus the sane one, who must still go through high school, danget) and I will not work. I promised myself I wasn't going to work next semester. I tend to be a workaholic of sorts and in promising myself that I won't work it's like promising myself 4 months of 21-year-old-hood. 21 year-olds are not supposed to be workaholics, they are supposed to be alcoholics. Granted, I do not plan on taking up drinking, but I do plan on taking up napping, studying, watching Television again perhaps (!?) and trying to enjoy my education rather than speeding through it. I tend to go stir crazy without a job. Actually, I don't know how I act without a job considering the only time I haven't been employed in the past 6 years was Freshman year. If Freshman year is an indication of next semester can you can be prepared to hear about sleeping and partying. My guess? I'll have a job by February. But, maybe I will go and shock myself. 

Wait, wasn't I talking about boots and coats? Anyhow

goodnight hollywood boulevard, goodnight

things i will miss:

• Sitting at Del Taco in the middle of the night ordering nothing just broad-watching
• getting a tear in my eye when driving by DT
• 9-6 MWF
• The smell of the JFSB
• No Shhh.
• Provo is the only place in the world where you can easily avoid being offered alcohol at a party
• Driving past the Botanical Pond and seeing girls taking their bridals
• my view of University Ave.
• Pandos
• Cami Thursdays
• BYU Salt Lake Center
• snowboarding- not like the actual act, but the fact that everyone gets so excited for "powder" or whatever it is
• Snow in April
• Yoasis
• Rodney
• Friday and Saturday nights 10 p.m. - 2 a.m.
• School

Bye-bye Provologne

How to annoy me

Eat an apple in the bathroom.

The following are NOT bathroom noises:
Sucking
Chomping
Smacking
More Sucking